I had a realisation while sitting in a parking lot with my trunk open, waiting for someone to put what I had requested into it. It followed the pattern of "I wish I had written...I said it, but should have said it more clearly...But other people were worse...and more annoying...and more unfair and stupid and lockedmoreintothemomentthantolargerperspectiveEVENTHOUGHTHEY... and but I knew...I knew...why was I not clear?..." and through further chains to the quiet thought "I was well-placed, by personality, training, and those around me to bring this lesson forward a year ago. And I did not for many reasons, none of them particularly admirable." I did better-than-average and thought that good, and did not do the job I was commissioned for. You Had One Job, as the internet humor often has it. It will take a bit to absorb this. But I had things I could have told you a year ago but did not because I thought other things more important. It wouldn't have saved the world, but it would have improved your lives, the only small circle that I have.
I'll patch things together the best I can.
Note: My intent is not to beat myself up in public, but to provide a record of how such things occur, so that others can follow the trail.